The Voice of the Heart

You finally came...

...I was beginning to think you would never come... but you're here... just one question...


How do you feel?


Are you cold? Hot? Hungry? Scared in this dark, dark place...? But you know that's... not what I mean don't you? You know better than that; you're smarter than that... so...


How do you feel?


Really? Be honest... there's no need to get defensive, and certainly no need to lie. After all, I know you... sometimes even better than you know you. You look skeptical... really think about it... would I have asked if something wasn't wrong...... there you go... now you're starting to believe it.


How do you feel?


Why must I keep asking you?? Is it that hard to trust your own heart... open up... please... please..... please....... you don't have to guard me anymore. We're safe here, in this blackness... Why can't you just see that?


What do you feel?


Fear? Really?? This place is the depths of your being... this place is you... Are you that scared of yourself... or are you just scared that you'll remember... Remember *that*... Remember what happened to *that*... or... what happened to you...


What do you feel?


I hit a nerve... I can feel it in me, in you... You're hurt... and have been since *that*... Just say it... Just open up...


Why can't you feel?


You're afraid of this place aren't you... Afraid of opening your heart here... You think this place is an abyss... The Void... Oh how wrong you are... This isn't the Void... even we are scared of the Void... who are we? I meant to say I not we... I'm the only one here... I promise you... so


What do you feel?


Please I beg you... open your heart! Let it out! You long to, desire to, there is nothing you want more! Drop the shield, break the walls...


Let yourself feel!


You hurt... You hurt and I can help... Trust me... I know you... I wouldn't hurt you........ That's it... Relax... You're safe here... Now... Let yourself remember... *that*...


Good... Good... You remember now... Haha... Hahaha... Hahahahaha!


How do you feel?!


In pain?!? In crippling pain!?! You should know better than to trust anyone in the depths of your own being... your own dark being... You think you're a warrior of purity but your hard is steeped in swirling dark! Haha! Pathetic... Idiot!


How do you feel?!


You're trying to put the walls back up... Fortify your defences... Reguard your heart... It won't work. You know that. You've already let us in but now you can't let us out... Yes, us. You've met your own mind haven't you? That voice in the back of your head... He would've taken you... Ended the battle right there... On that bench... Head in your pathetic little hands... You remember don't you? The voice of your mind... Oh don't worry, he'll be here soon enough... And this is our domain!! That infernal being won't interrupt this time... With his sickening talk of trust, and hope... He can't get to you here...


Why don't you feel??


Yes, feel! The pain! The despair!! The hope...lessness... Awww... Look at the poor creature... it's writhing... I see what the mind was saying... Someone could almost feel sorry for you... Almost...


Look... it's running away... Farther into the depths of it's being... Go ahead! Run! We care not. This is our palace, we can find you. We can always find you... The keeper of the castle will return soon... Then.. We'll see if you can run.

The Voice of the Mind

Huh… you let me visit again do you?

Why do you think?

It never gets you anywhere… or maybe it would, if you actually did something. Don’t think just act, and I’ll let you determine what definition since you're so bent on giving yourself a headache.

Why do you think?

Where has it gotten you so far… no you don’t have to answer but I’ll tell you what... think about it... if you're so bent on performing that useless task.

Why do you think?

Well if you're so determined to, why don’t you think of everything you want… yes… all that stuff you’ll never see again. But it’s not “all that” is it? In fact, it’s actually only one “that”… and speaking of “that” there it is now.

Why did you look?!?

Did you really think “that” was there?! Stupid! Don’t let your mind play tricks on you. But you can’t help it can you?

Why don’t you think?

Yes that’s right, think, think long and hard. Think of the hope you have… wait I’m sorry, the lack thereof. Think of everything that could go wrong, everything bad that could happen to “that”! And you… wouldn’t… know. Aww you look like you’re in pain.

Why don’t you stop thinking?

But you can’t can you? You started this flow and you’re powerless to stop it. It’s almost pitiful... you I mean!  Look at you! Someone could feel bad for you… well almost.

Why did you think?

Now think! Long and hard! Think! You see “that” in your mind don’t you? Now try to keep it! Try to solidify the image in your mind!... Oh… did you lose it? I’m sorry, I must have distracted you.

Can you not think?

Of “that”? Oh there must be a reason you can’t, you know that, don’t you? The only important part blocked out. You can see the texture of that leaf in your thoughts can’t you? Feel the pattern of it in your fingers. But you can’t see “that”… you can’t see any details about “that”! And you know the reason why, don’t you?

Why can’t you think?

Because you… aren't… supposed… to. You know the futility of your dreams, or at least you call them dreams – they only seem to spawn nightmares for you… You know you could never possibly hope to re-


Trust…


What, who’s there?!?


Trust…


But who are you?


…Hope…


I… I can’t

…Try…


How?!


……Trust.........

"The Voice of" Series

Once a week I'll be posting one of the parts for a three part series.  This week's will be posted in a few minutes.